Super Bowl XLI!!!!!

It is a beautiful thing! My Boys are back to the Super Bowl after a 21 year drought! Super bowl shuffle 2007. Today was a good day. After a slow start, Rex looked confident and poised. The defense remembered that they are the best defense in the league and played like it, holding the number 1 offense to just 14 points, forcing 4 turnovers and just plain dominating the game. Brian Urlacher is the greatest! Any one who thinks he is overrated, how many of you have seen a 255 pound middle line backer with that much speed! He is a beast! The Chicago Bears are #1! I lovey love love them! Go Bears!

AMAZING!!!!!

I am constantly in a state of amazement at how wonderful my friends are. I am so blessed to have each of you in my life. That thought came to me yesterday as I sat in sacrament and listened to an amazing talk given by one of these friends.

Frenda-You are fabulous! I can always count on you for strength and support when things get hard, or if i just need some one to make me laugh. You always come through and i know that you will always be there.

TK-things have been rocky, but i am glad for what we have, and what we had. I miss you.

Squeej-I am always amazed by you. Just when i think you can't get any better, you do. YOu are wonderful. You are a rock and an a mold for what every man should be. Thank you for being you and showingme what i should want to become.

Squared-I love talking to you. I know that you understand a lot of the things i am going through, and vice versa. Thank you for listening to me complain. I am here for you whenever.

Tiger-I am so greatful for your friendship. Thank you for telling me when i am being dumb or just trying to sabotage myself. You always help me see that i am worth the trouble.

To all those not listed. I am greatfull for all you do for me. THere so many of you that strengthen me every day, in one way or another. I treasure each of you. You have done more for than me then i could ever ask for. I love you all.

Complicated

Seriously sometimes i feel that my life is this song. why does it have to be this way. I shouldn't have to be, but it is. Now i am just going to feel all strange and not no how to act. Can i just go back to mexico. I forgot about it all there. Sun and sand, that is all i need to forget the silly matters that shouldn't be such a concern.

So Close!

I wish it were next friday so bad right now! I just want to go. One whole week of nothing to worry about. Seriously can't we just skip next week?

Seven Lovely Songs

Here you go Holly.

I"ll Follow you Into the dark- Death Cab For Cutie
Red High Heels-Kellie Pickler
Around The Bend-Pearl Jam
Hold On- Sarah McLachlan
Run-Snow Patrol
My Little Girl-Tim McGraw
Never Love You Enough-Chely Wright

I most of these are old songs, but i still love them.

Tag:
Jeje
Silent
Cellular
Mantis
American Hoser

I think I may throw up!

Seriously. Could the bears make that game anymore difficult for me?! I almost threw up several times, but they pulled it out in the end. Good thing my boyfriend Brian showed up in the second half.

Awkward

Sometimes I don't think i can even fit into that box again. Strange how one day seems so normal and then the next so out of place, like you don't really fit and that no one notices it except you and you don't know what to do about it to make it different.

Smile!

I have had a great day. Well actually. it started last night and I just can't seem to stop smiling. Ahhh, sometimes things go great!

Filter? What Filter?

Sometimes I say things before I really think and it can get me into a lot of trouble. Today was one of those days. It was at this time that it was implied that I am not willing to take risks to try and get what I want.

That is so true.

I have never been one who was willing to open up and take the risk of being hurt or disappointed for everyone to see, so I do nothing. It is not good. I know that there are loads of things that I should just try, even once, but I am too affriad, too proud, to let myself. I find it demeaning to do some things. I hate looking stupid in front of people. For a long time I felt that my intelligence was the only thing I had to offer to people, and even that wasn't enough, so I have a fear of people thinking I am dumb, because it reverts back to me not having anything at all to offer to anyone.

I know that this is a bit crazy, and that I am far beyond where I was at that point of my life, but still, I don't know how to overcome it. I know what I need to do , but I can't. Iknow what I should to say, but I just can't bring myself to do it. .

Wedded Bliss

Last weekend I had the opportunity to attend the wedding of a dear friend from my high school days. It had been years since I had seen her. It is amazing to me how everything seemed so much the same, and yet we all knew that we had changed so much.

I will never forget the seeing the tears that came from the eyes of the bride and her mother when they saw us come in, the disbelief in who was standing there in front of them, and the joy that we could travel such distances for her. Swan, I know you will probably never read this but, I am so thankful for our friendship, and you looked beautiful, as always.

The Perfect Dress

Thanks to Cellular, or at least I am pretty sure it is her, I have my first customer! I am a little nervous though, this girl is willing to pay me a lot of money to make her dress! I hope I don't disappoint.

Repairs are hard!

Secret Smile? Not so much a secret any more because of...

Not killing your GPA like you thought you would
Sunny Days
Circus Animal Cookies
Dinner with the HT
Abba and Madonna back to back on jim
Purple Pants
Sleep
My nephew, 8, insisting it is ok to wrestle his 2 year old sister if he "takes it easy on her"
Long talks with grandma
Jim and Pam
Becoming DFD free!
Sequined shoes
My Mom
Friendships with sisters
Late night talks with Mantis, Holly, and Cass
3 1/2" Heels
The feel of grass between my toes
Cellular's Laugh
the Parkway
Searingly handsome
Vacations to look forward to
Summertime
Flowers
Jack Johnson
Knowing of God's love for me
Never really being alone

Procrstination and other dumb things i do

So i have finals next week. I also have about 4 papers to write, but did i do that today? No. Although, i do have a very good excuse, the monitor on my computer died last night, so i had to find a new one. Luckily i didn't have to buy one, Holly's mom and little bro saved me by having a spare one. Yipee.

I also finally decided it might be a good idea to get my tires rotated (first time in almost 2 years of owning the car). Needless to say i had to buy new tires today. Only two thankfully but honestly, why do i always wait to do things that i know for ages that i need to be doing.

Speeking of that i should probably be planning a Relief Society lesson right about now, since oh i need to teach it tomorrow. Yeah i am a slacker.

You can't go back

This weekend i went on a short roadtrip to rexburg. It is amazing how much it is the same, and yet so different. Maybe it is exactly the same as it used to be, i have just changed. That is probably it. I was a very different person while i was there, and i am greatful for the things that i learned at Ricks/BYU-I that have helped me to become who i am today, but i wouldn't go back. No thank you.

On another note i am one step closer to getting the business going. Slopers are now in my posession. Yipee. Send out the word. Flarah Bridal is ready for business.

Eye Color

So this weekend i was told that my eyes are the color of stale sinus infection buggers. Most people just call it green.

You Can't Always Get What You Want...

Why didn't I see it a year and a half ago? My timing sucks.

Everybody's Changing and I don't feel the same

This phrase of song speaks volumes. Have you ever noticed that everyone around you is changing and, because of this you don't know where you fit. I have felt this way a lot lately. I don't know why, i just do. Sometimes i think that in the midst of our changing, we forget who we once were and deviate so far from that person, that it is hard to fit in those who knew you before. Why do we do this? Is it to block out those who care about us? Or is this new person who we really are, and before we were hiding it? Or do we deliberately change in order to pull away from those who we don't want to know anymore?

Smile and nodd

Two things that have received this response this week.

Everyone i work with feeling the need to find me a man and the boy in the car next to me who is obviously checking me out, honestly no need to drive the exact same speed as me the whole time i am on north temple.

Really i am flattered that people think i would have a good time with these people they know, but i am starting to wonder if i have desperate stamped across my forehead. I don't think that i do. Maybe it is because i am 24, single, and LDS, that makes all these women feel that they need to get me married, apparently my ovaries are starting to shrivle. Tw0 years ago i was told i needed to get married becasue Heaven is starting to run out of babies. Oh well i will just have to chance it. Honestly I think that we need to hire another single girl (sans boyfriend) to help balance out this onslaught.

And for you Mr. Blazer, thank you for making my day. I felt that i truely looked like poo yesterday,( greasy hair and my glasses never allow me to feel cute) and that just made me happy, but after a little minute of i started to get a little creeped out. Watch the road, not me thank you. Hitting my car is not going to cause you to win any points. So drive on.

Crossing things off?

I am about to cross off two of my biggest goals on my list. Find a job i actually enjoy, and find my passion, becasue these two are entwined.

A frined of mine from Ricks, with whom i currently work, and I are going to start a business. We have realized that we hate our jobs and could be doing so much more. Right now we are still in planning mode, but wait a little bit and soon we will be out full force. Unfortunately i will not be leaving my other job for at least a year probably. I need the insurance and the steady income, so stick out sewing hell for one more year, then my retirement will be vested and they can't take it form me, and it will give us time to really get things going.

This is a step i have always wanted to do, and now it is finally being realized. I am so excited and yet still so scared, becasue what if i fail? What if no one likes our designs? What if we can't do it? I know that I have the talents and abilities to do something great, but i am still worried. It is normal to second guess your abilities right?

Our main focus is going to be temple ready wedding gowns and modest formal wear, becasue they are needed and there is a market for them here in Utah. And when we say temple ready we mean ones that will work with every type, not just a specific one as so many of the dresses are designed now.

Well wish me luck. Oh and feel free to throw out some name ideas. We are still working on that.